Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. . . .”
At the end of my last post, I described my doubts about sticking with a life in law because of the difficulties I saw it posing to a life of incarnational ministry. I didn’t look forward to entering communities and situations with the immediate baggage of being a lawyer, both from how others perceived me and in how I perceived others.
During this period, I told other students my thoughts and fears and received understanding nods. I consulted mentor attorneys who told me to mellow out, encouraging me to stick with it because lawyers fill a niche in the pursuit of justice others can’t. I prayed and didn’t feel God speak conclusively. So I stayed put in classes hoping for more clarity. Even if I didn’t drop out, I figured I could finish law school without taking the bar: a rite without the passage, hazing without a pledge, courting without consummation. God would make it clear in time, I was sure. Continue reading